oh yes it's like a drug

i refuse to be hooked.. but *deep breath* wasn't that the best feeling? oh, of course i would know.. lately though, i've been taking control *pats herself on the back*

it's really hard to fight temptation.. at least for me.. but i've been doing good lately, and i'm not just talking about one thing but also a bunch of other stuff that temptations drags along.. i'm hanging on..

[you can assume all you want with what i'm talking about]

i hate feeling empty.. but what i'm most worried of is not feeling anything at all.. i hope that doesn't happen to me.. i don't wanna be dead and cold, but at the same time i don't like hurting either.. is there something in between?

my posts have been personal lately.. that's why i've been missing days to update because i'm just feeling the same way.. i mean, there's nothing interesting about being miserable.. everyone got their own crap to deal with.. why the heck would they wanna read yours? so, i'll try to write about something different on my next post.. i'll try

i still want you to understand.. so please do..
if we are, we will be..